#Being sh0rt is FUN#

2012-01-28T23:40:00.000+08:00

im really tired of myself, really tired

2011-10-10T01:33:00.000+08:00

science equation recipes
it's better than udders i guess
but i'll have to catch up fast

negative thoughts
emotions
shouldn't be kept till breaking point
don't act strong
just let it out

2011-09-19T11:33:00.000+08:00

Weird dreams.
But you were in them.

2011-09-06T00:17:00.001+08:00

guess it will be over

2011-09-03T14:01:00.003+08:00

HATE RECURRING NIGHTMARE REALLY REALLY HATE THEM

2011-09-01T01:00:00.004+08:00

its kinda weird
thinking back
at the corner seat
near the entrance of the class
when did i began to notice you?
back then
thoughts to myself
you seem carefree
bad attendance
bad attire
it didn't matter to you
but is that okay?
wondered to myself
you miss classes
lots of time
lots
you never seem to have trouble
socializing
overheard particular conversation
joined in
you responded casually
realized that
you treat everyone equally
in your own way
just a classmate to you
time pass
observe you at the back
the rare occasions
your presence in class
crush was behind me
should have been blinded by him
weird?
maybe not
feelings for you?
nope
just curious
why?
not sure about it
wondered about your life
the things that you do
mid September
critical exams
your approach
really weird
have to admit
secretly inside
made me smile
verbal abuse
from me
from you
start?

2011-08-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

Pause at random moments
Wonder to myself
What am i doing?

2011-08-20T14:58:00.003+08:00

Be aware of yourself, your facial expressions, your body language. Everything.

2011-08-17T23:25:00.003+08:00

Taking physical and mental advantage of a girl. One victim after another, to satisfy a man's appetite. But if you do not want to let your family know about it, the culprit to be put behind bars, your friends to come to harm. That is your decision. Stay strong in your life.

2011-08-17T07:26:00.000+08:00

First time experience of KTV singing, it was kinda okay. The songs that were played made me miss him lots. A lot.

2011-08-16T15:04:00.000+08:00

Jumping to conclusions.
Why didn't you pinch yourself and think about it?
What if he was with a girl that had confessed to him,
Both of them are drinking,
Having a good time?
How would that make you feel?
How does that make him feel?
You miss him?
I don't really think so.
When he called you to have a chat with you.
You're busy, hanging out and drinking with another guy.
He asked where you were and what were you doing.
You just answered his questions,
But you weren't direct about it.
You should be telling him.
Why wait for him to ask?
His tone seem as though he was fine with it.
Yeah right.
Do you really know how he felt when he before he called,
the answers that he heard from you
And when he hung up?
Then you realized what you had done.
But it's too late.
You don't want to lose him.
But what are you doing?
You want him to know you inside out,
But what are you doing?
What are you doing?

2011-08-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

I'm losing you.
I don't know what to do.
What should I do?
To let you hold me in your arms forever?
Tell me.

2011-07-10T11:33:00.002+08:00

Foresee 4 years of poly^^

2011-06-18T13:24:00.000+08:00

its okay to have a bad dream..they won't stay with you forever..its okay..its okay

2011-06-05T22:48:00.000+08:00

i don't act the same when i'm at a different place or with a different person..its the same for everyone

2011-06-04T10:58:00.007+08:00

If a girl is silent, it's dangerous.
She's either:
1. Over thinking.
2. Tired of waiting.
3. About to blow up.
4. Needs a hug.
5. Falling apart.
6. Crying inside.
7. All of the above

O.o

2011-05-22T13:29:00.001+08:00

FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT

2011-05-18T09:44:00.000+08:00

hmm? saw this in twitter~ ooo..maybe that means that me will never have a fixed style

#Cancers usually dress according to their mood,so their style is forever changing,and could be completely different from one day to the next

2011-05-17T23:48:00.000+08:00

!!RAWR!! some of the previous designs are back
humph~ but they won't always wait for me
http://gelliz.livejournal.com/45723.html

2011-05-05T13:41:00.000+08:00

Drained out.

2011-05-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

Pour away fear and worry
Fill it with emptiness

2011-05-02T16:13:00.000+08:00

hot and cold treatment isn't a piece of cake to deal with

2011-05-01T03:44:00.000+08:00

hmm..

1. Wake up.
2. Survive.
3. Sleep.

random thought of a summarized version of what i do everyday..bleah~

2011-04-28T01:41:00.000+08:00

Saw a number of familiar faces.
Among them, a childlike crush.

2011-04-17T22:53:00.000+08:00

hold me in your arms
never let me go :3

2011-04-09T07:16:00.000+08:00

Taken off for a major performance =/

Damn tutorials.. typical read..absorb..forget

2011-03-24T00:35:00.000+08:00

on.. off.. on.. off.. on..

where's the switch to turn off this emptiness?

2011-03-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

Family drama.
Threats of divorce heard.
Threats to throw me out.
Right...
I don't know what to expect from this family anymore.
Please don't expect anything from me.
I would just bring disappointment.

Puzzling dream O.o

Heard this from somebody, why do people always do things, "I, K, E, O, B", but not "A, B, D, E, F"? No direct answer for that. But he continued with telling us that the things that we do should follow "A, B, C, D, E, F". Let's say that you are attached, but there are lingering feelings for a girl or guy that you once like. You can't just break up with your current boyfriend or girlfriend just for another guy or girl. Its the same for the way of living our lives I guess, that's what I thought when he shared his views.

2011-03-01T13:17:00.000+08:00

Same scenario, different dream. So what? That would still count as a recurring nightmare.

different scenario last night >.<

2011-02-26T00:07:00.000+08:00

No recurring nightmares please.

Digging my own grave of misery^^

2011-02-24T01:36:00.000+08:00

hmm~ more random thoughts popping out of nowhere.

Lots of stuff that I want. No money. Tsk.

2011-01-20T01:15:00.001+08:00

You can't love somebody if you don't love yourself.

you know what you should do shorty..hmm..another new year resolution abit late ba

2011-01-15T21:02:00.000+08:00

changed the template of my blog..something that i should have done long ago :b
took out the archives and include the tag board..hmm..i think im forgetting something
never mind..shall finish editing the template when i feel like it
considering whether i should change to tumblr

2011-01-13T18:54:00.000+08:00

frustrations..just ignore them

2010-12-31T20:50:00.000+08:00

I told you that I do not want to go overseas. There is a reason why I say so. If my presence makes all of you so unhappy, if the things that I do make all you so angry, then you people should have let somebody else go for this trip with all of you instead of me. Look, I know the consequences of my actions. So stop harping on it. Will it make things better? Do I not clearly understand what I had done?

2010-12-24T12:51:00.001+08:00

sometimes even if the heart forgets the body remembers

2010-12-20T00:25:00.003+08:00

I predict that you would would treat me like a sister. I would treat you like a brother. Why did you have to think that it will be more than that? Showing concern for a friend does not always mean that you like him or her.

2010-12-18T01:24:00.001+08:00

If you miss the way you were.
Keep it in your memories.
Stop living in the past.
If you hate the way you are now.
Treat is as a lesson.
Learn from your mistakes.
They will always be a part of you.

moving on~

2010-12-13T02:19:00.002+08:00

contradiction..it always happens

2010-12-03T02:16:00.001+08:00

I met my old friend recently, she mentioned that I was more fortunate than her. But even if she didn't mentioned it, I knew that it is a fact.

staring at the screen, clueless about how i should type it down.. maybe its like counting your blessings but taking it for granted.

what's so difficult about listening? even if you really listen, your reply would be nn..arh..orh.. you deserve to be slapped in the face. 17 years..growing older everyday yet your mentality is so shallow. see that twisted reflection? that's you.

bitch shorty.

2010-11-29T22:35:00.000+08:00

Read too much of Yamada Tarou Monogatari recently. Too much isn't always good>.< Its kinda exaggerating, I would experience heartache when I see the prices(O.O) of stuff that I can't afford unless I win the lottery.

haizz~ still not taking life seriously, wonder how long do i plan to hurt myself?^^

2010-11-17T21:13:00.002+08:00

I should spend my life in solitude. It would benefit others so much.

2010-10-28T12:31:00.001+08:00

Passing time.. Maybe I'm really changing into a freakish person^^ In public, break down. Solitude, stare into blank space.

2010-10-27T10:29:00.000+08:00

'love' the ignorance
zz..who gives you the right to tap a girl's shoulder even if you know her from appearance..

2010-10-22T11:50:00.002+08:00

Contradicting. One moment I could not stand the 'you are insignificant' attitude. Then I suddenly remember the desktop wallpaper that always made me smile.

Really miss my laptop. It may never be found. Never mind, I'll just use this cute seal as a distraction.

2010-10-14T14:45:00.000+08:00

What am I doing?-.-

All talk but no action.

2010-10-13T11:16:00.004+08:00

oops>.< why did i respond to him by sticking out my tongue??+.+

played truth or dare (dirty version)

Somehow I feel that it can't make up its mind whether it wants to fade away or stay. But will it be too late to realize that what I "dread" for isn't what I want at all? I'm aware of the priorities in my life. Yet they seem so insignificant.

2010-10-12T21:41:00.001+08:00

If I cease to exist. I hope that no one would miss me^^

2010-09-25T02:20:00.001+08:00

that feeling when one can't do anything to make it better^^

2010-09-21T15:29:00.003+08:00

hum~ i was hoping that the school could help me with the update that i must install in my lappy..guess not. rawr~ Have to wake up early early if i want them to help me. Time waits for no one, once its gone..too bad~~ That's a really stupid reason to waste my time in school when I'm on "vacation".

I always had this wish in my mind when I'm building castles in the air, a wish that may never come true. To have my own house. hum~~ Imagine how I would spend time in that cozy cottage. Maybe it would be 1 room HDB flat. But it is always fun to let my mind wander and think of all the possibilities and options of my dream house. Creating different scenes of my daily life in that cottage.

It's random. That's why its fun.

2010-09-20T02:07:00.001+08:00

I'm a terrible terrible..TERRIBLE friend..

2010-08-31T18:56:00.000+08:00

tired of it..

2010-08-29T23:04:00.001+08:00

+.+humph~~

2010-08-18T15:49:00.000+08:00

2010-08-14T15:08:00.003+08:00

10 years from now, would I still bother to pick up the phone to message or call him or her? Or would I delete away that name from my contact list? Would I have the time or even bothered to meet up with him or her just to see each other and enjoy the times that we spend?

?friends or strangers?

Maybe my guess is false. If only it isn't true. Even if it is true, would it really fill it up, make it whole again? Or would it just let it crush out its wasted form?^^

2010-08-13T03:04:00.001+08:00

2010-08-10T17:21:00.000+08:00

2010-08-06T23:04:00.001+08:00

Wish that I could hug something that would comfort me and let it all out^^

2010-08-04T23:30:00.001+08:00

If you can't get someone out of your head, maybe they're supposed to be there~~

2010-07-29T21:53:00.005+08:00

Telling me that.
Then, decide on you own that I have move on.
What's the point?
Did it ever cross your mind how deep it is?

2010-07-25T03:10:00.001+08:00

Kinda miss it. The times when I had no worries.

2010-07-23T01:14:00.001+08:00

humph.. filling myself with disappointment recently..

2010-07-08T21:43:00.003+08:00

hmm~ I didn't realize that people who know me would not recognize me if I change my nerdy look.

2010-06-25T01:50:00.001+08:00

Gigs that annoy my taste of music.
Stood up.
Inexperienced hurts.

2010-06-16T02:01:00.001+08:00

Laptop slowly... falling apart. Hope that it will stay with me till I graduate.
Lalaland~ :3

2010-06-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

noooooooooooooooooooooooo!!
i'm still in holiday mood..rawr~

2010-06-08T01:31:00.002+08:00

Was it him? I may have been wrong about what I saw. Come to think of it, when I think of the past that we shared, I would only remember those that are painful.

2010-05-31T14:54:00.001+08:00

Few days ago, I saw him.
It seems that it will never be erased^^

2010-05-28T23:35:00.001+08:00

!HOLIDAY!

2010-05-17T23:39:00.001+08:00

humph~ humph~ humph~
humph~ humph~ humph~
humph~ humph~ humph~
humph~ humph~ humph~
humph~ humph~ humph~
humph~ humph~ humph~
humph~ humph~ humph~
humph~ humph~ humph~
Even if I do it next year, that does not mean that they will accept me.

2010-05-15T23:17:00.002+08:00

Thanks alot mom^^
shopping spree~

2010-05-14T23:54:00.002+08:00

humph~ humph~ humph~
I am so not going to get in.

2010-05-13T23:04:00.003+08:00

hum~ it's already the 5th week of school, I feel a tinge of regret that I didn't post anything about last few weeks of lessons. Moving on~ hmm~ Presentation not really successful, expected ba. Just hope that he does not test my patience. rawr~ laughter can be contagious but it nearly make me choke when I was drinking+.+
Don't look to the past. Cherish now.

2010-05-12T21:30:00.002+08:00

munch..munch..munch
Missing out all the good food, thanks alot throat.

2010-05-11T22:58:00.003+08:00

Life is really like a game, it can be calm and peaceful for awhile. But soon, everything does not always go right. I told you about my situation but you ignored me, what do you expect me to do after you said that I was lying.

Humph~ it was never easy.

2010-05-08T00:45:00.002+08:00

Tired. Empty.
Time will never wait.
Lesson learnt, the hard way.
Argue. Quarrel. Fight.
At the wrong time.
Shut up.
Fed up.
Just shut up.
Why?
No reason.

2010-05-03T11:43:00.004+08:00

I saw his post about his relationship status,really weird. I didn't feel sad or angry but relieved, just hope that he will be a good boyfriend.

2010-04-30T00:19:00.001+08:00

humph..straight in my face that I to act my own age, "Don't baby me"...zzz..irritaing speech problem.

hope that the audition will be a breeze~

fun fun~

2010-04-24T00:15:00.001+08:00

Freaking fed up. Always make myself feel disappointed.

2010-04-07T00:43:00.002+08:00

hmm~ poly life starting soon..might be able to distract me ba

its like a void inside that can't be healed..hum~

2010-04-06T00:54:00.003+08:00

too freaking bored ba..bleah~

?what do your food cravings reveal about your mood?
-if you crave tough foods, like meat or hard and crunchy foods, you could be feeling angry.
-if you crave sugars, you could be feeling depressed.
-if you crave soft and sweet foods, like ice cream, you could be feeling anxious.
-if you crave bulky, fill-you-up foods, like crackers and pasta, you could be feeling lonely.
-if you crave anything and everything, you could be feeling jealous.

oops..hmm~ ?would instant noodles be considered as pasta?

2010-04-05T23:51:00.004+08:00

humph~ left a bad impression on the teacher that i was assigned to..watch 'the diary of a wimpy kid'..not bad..humph..but chewy junior's cheese junior sold out+.+ didn't manage to buy a new bag..maybe i should look for a job; spend my salary next year..hmm~ look less than average for the first year should be able to save $$ for next year ba

2010-04-04T03:51:00.004+08:00

...zZ..zZ..hmm~ rotting at home..zZ..humph..my new laptop might be pink=.= me want black..watched 'the maid' on tv..quite ok ba
humph~ hum~ really weird these few days..feel 'empty'..sometimes suffocated or both..it just won't go away

2010-03-29T15:35:00.000+08:00

!me want a lappy fast!

2010-03-20T01:49:00.002+08:00

hum~ think me sleep too much ba..should change my zodiac to the cat..if its possible^^ finished reading crocodile tears;alex rider series..hmm~ not bad ba..wish me can be my old self

2010-03-18T00:30:00.001+08:00

DRAMA~

2010-03-16T22:13:00.002+08:00

humph~ registered for private o levels..then i was thinking..oops..what did i just do?+.+ humph~ if i'm still not enrolled into rp..humph~ i'll have to wait till next year..wasted time+.+
new job for today..supply educational assistant..supervised a class of 5 year old students..disappointed with myself ba..have to be reminded by the teacher about blah blah blah..duties etc. humph~ think she has a bad impression of my attitude..some say that it's easy to communicate with children..NOT..but the students were ok ba
hope they won't call me to report for work tomorrow so last minute like last night..disrupt my plans for today..wanted to go shopping de..humph

2010-03-15T22:34:00.002+08:00

humph..dunno whether i should or should not retake my o levels..deadline for to register will end soon..but i can't make up my mind..even if i retake the exams..doesn't mean that i will pass it or score
really fuck up..at first they encourage me to take private diploma..now they want me to take private o levels..freaking ironic..tell me to self-study when i don't even have the confidence to pass..when will they stop..always planning my future..show me so many options of different private courses..now tell me they no money to sponsor me..don't have..fine..then they tell me that i can't make it..wth
really don't know what to do

2010-03-08T01:58:00.002+08:00

sianz..woke up..check my phone for new messages..all bad news de..lost my appetite..humph~ still can't comfirm which polytechnic me get into..freaking sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..humph~

2010-03-05T23:20:00.003+08:00

the things i do..zz..really nonsense..zzz
me want to get into a polytechnic fast..rawr..distract myself with studies
colleague..becomes friend..then hates me..O.o
act without thinking..freaking retarded..zzzz
!grow up you dumb shortie!

2010-02-22T23:16:00.002+08:00

humph~ hate waiting sometimes..makes me really impatient..not good
#news of whether me will get into rp
#payday

sometimes have to make a choice..which is freaking hard-see situation ba..humph~ headache><

dilemma~ humph~

2010-02-20T14:14:00.000+08:00

humph~

2010-02-18T22:02:00.001+08:00

the great thing about human language is that it prevents us from sticking to the matter at hand.

2010-02-07T21:59:00.001+08:00

people who are always making allowances for themselves soon go bankrupt.

2010-02-07T00:14:00.001+08:00

if all else fails, immortality can always be assured by spectacular error.

2010-02-06T22:35:00.001+08:00

they were so strong in their beliefs that there came a time when it hardly mattered what exactly those beliefs were; they all fused into a single stubbornness.

2010-02-06T03:22:00.001+08:00

a marriage is always made up of two people who are prepared to swear that only the other one snores

2010-02-05T22:17:00.001+08:00

people who get nostalgic about childhood were obviously never children

2010-02-04T01:34:00.001+08:00

one man practicing sportsmanship is better then a hundred teaching it

2010-02-03T01:04:00.002+08:00

humph..freaking fed up with education..humph..humph..can't get into any poly..never mind..ironic fact is that can't even get parents' approval..zzz..so what if i enroll into ite..at least i get a cert to study overseas..act so big..wow..tell me in the face to go take private..not as if you are going to sponsor me..zzz..freak..freak..freak..to hell with it